August 18th, 2016.
And I hope this post will benefit my readers too.
Alhamdulillah. Today marks the day of my 24th birthday. And of course, as I turn a year older, I hope also to turn a year wiser. Insha'Allah. Unlike the birthday celebrations I had in years past, I prefer to celebrate this birthday in a simplest way as it possibly could. Strangely when I turn into a young adult, I feel more comfortable to not expose myself more on social media than I did before. I thank Him for today, for allowing me to live this long because not everyone is as fortunate as us. Say alhamdulillah.
I made a lot of life-reflection lately. Contemplation. In fact, I always do this a few days before my birthday just to remind myself of how lucky I am to live this life. I've changed a lot since I came back to Malaysia and I've been through a lot too, emotionally. Therefore, it's important for me to do this reflection to help myself understand that despite what happened in life there are always positive things to be thankful for. And being me, I love to share this reflection to my readers.
Life itself is a lesson.
I was born and raised by two loving parents who had been through life adversity when they were young. I was never pampered by wealth, neither my siblings, when we were little. There were no Barbies or other expensive toys. For us, there was only imagination. I remember when my sister and I would grab video tapes and we would build a house from it. We'd use anything that for us would work as our dolls. I also remember when I was a toddler, my mother and I visited her friend's house. Her house was big. As I was walking into the house, I saw a big doll house. It was everything a little girl could dream of having! As much as I wanted that doll house, I understood my parents very well. We weren't rich but blessing alone was enough for us. So, I went home and continued playing the video tapes we had and built a house as big as we could.
That's my life, the part that was never written before.
But I wouldn't trade it with anything else.
It takes more than “I want to...” to achieve what you want.
I am forever grateful for having the parents I have today. Listening to their life stories has helped to keep my feet on the ground. And I'm thankful for having healthy grandparents who shares a lot about the struggles they had to go through during war time. It's important to remind yourself of who you are and to not let yourself get carried away with what the world has to offer.
My parents were born in a poor family. It was never easy for them to achieve what they have now. They never had a chance to further their studies abroad or bought a Mercedes Benz as their first car. But that's the beauty of life, that's when I learn to achieve something on my own and value it for the hard work that I put into to achieve it. I remember when my father told us about his university life. He had to borrow money from his uncle to help him go through uni. My late grandparents weren't rich. My late grandpa was a carpenter and his wife was a housewife. The only person he could depend on was his uncle. That fifty ringgit cash given by his uncle was for his one-month spending. And he wouldn't have done it if it wasn't because of his dream to change the life of his family. He was a responsible son and brother. Something that I look forward to in my future husband someday.
Dream of something and make it happen.
My cousin was a brilliant student and was offered to further her studies in Medicine in Russia. She was my inspiration. I wasn't sure of what I wanted to become in the future but one thing that I was so sure about was that I wanted to study abroad. I often dream of studying in a university abroad when I was a teenager. I'd do anything to achieve it. So, I took 13 subjects before finishing high school including science subjects, Arabic Language, The Studies of the Qur'an and Sunnah, The Islamic Law and Tasawwur Islam. I succeeded, had a chance to further my studies in Australia, and graduated with a degree in Psychology. When I look back at it now, I realise that I've always been a risk taker since then.
My life in Australia has taught me valuable lessons.
It was the best chapter in my life!
Good things come to those who wait.
Turning a year older also means that you are one step ahead towards a new life chapter. Remember when I said I've gone through a lot emotionally? Well, this is life. It's like a roller coaster, it has its ups and downs. But it's your choice to scream or enjoy the ride.
Many years have passed since my last relationship. Of course, I've been asked many times about relationship, marriage, boyfriend, et cetera. It gets to a point where my mother would try to match me with her friend's son. To me, relationship is precious and I want it to be special. I've always wanted to marry a man who can be a great father to my children but if now is not the right time, then I'll wait until the right time comes. I'm blessed to have a friend who understands me well.
“Allah knows best. You deserve better and Allah is saving you for him,” she says.
I never made promises lightly. I mean it when I say I'll wait for the best one.
He knows best and I have faith in Him.
A great man is on his way.
Happy 24th birthday to myself.
A year older, a year wiser.