True love is beyond imagination

Have you ever fall deeply in love with The Creator? You're so addicted to His love that it makes you want to be the best for Him, The Almighty, and you don't want to disappoint your loved one even with a slightest mistake.Yes, this is what I feel. And best of all, the best thing about falling in love with Allah is He never ever disappoints you with His mercy and blessings. This. Is. Love. This is what I called true love. And true love only exist between you and Allah Taala. I've never ever felt this calm before. Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah for showing me the way. Alhamdulillah. May Allah guide us all to the right path. Ameen, Ya Rabb.

There is always a blessing in every test

I apologize for my recent post. It was very ungrateful of me for saying that I wish I could turn back the time. I feel bad thinking about what I've wrote, as if I refuse to accept His plans for me. Astaghfirullah. It is wrong to write that kind of thing. As a Muslim, I should have and put my whole faith in Allah. Believe that everything happens for a reason. There is always a blessing in every test. Remember that. Alhamdulillah, I thank Allah for giving me this unpleasant feeling as a hint that He dislikes what I've done. So, I've changed it. I'm so sorry, my friend. Do not take it as an example, it wasn't a good one.  

Ya Allah, please forgive me. 

Forgive me for all the wrong things I've done. For I am a sinful slave. 

I seek your forgiveness Ya Rahman.

Nothing worse than seeing your loved one hurt

“There isn't a day that goes by that I don’t miss you, or think about what we had. When I miss you so much, I will always mention your name in my Sujud. Asking Allah to always take a good care of you, your heart and your iman.”

I have nothing to offer except kindness and love. Sometimes, the hardest part of moving on is letting go of your precious memories. Because 'moving on' is all about looking forward for whatever awaits you in the future and never look back. There were times when I pretended to be happy and smile. There were times when I could cry myself to sleep wishing everything that had happened was just a nightmare. There were times when I wish I could wake up the next morning with a sincere smile. Sometimes, all you can do is pray. Because you're too weak to change the past. Sometimes you have to give up your happiness for someone else's. Sometimes you have to bear the pain, the pain of seeing the one you love within the hold of someone's arms. Because to you, all that matters is to see your loved one happy. I would rather be the one who suffer the pain than seeing the one I love hurt. Because to me, nothing is worse than seeing my loved one hurt.

On forgiveness and fairytale

“Learn to forgive. Forgive everything from the past and forgive anyone from your past. Because in this world, nobody is perfect.”

Learn to forgive. Forgive everything from the past and forgive anyone from your past. Because in this world, nobody is perfect. We all make mistakes. And it is always good and noble to forgive someone in your life. In love, teach your heart to always forgive the one you love. It doesn't matter how bad or how much it hurt before, learn to forgive them. The best thing about forgiving someone is you are pleasing Allah Taala.

“When you stop searching for a Prince and make Allah Taala the King of your heart, He will help you to complete your fairytale. InshaAllah.”

Remember, Allah always has a better plan for each and one of us. InshaAllah. I can’t tell you how thankful I am to Allah Taala that because of Him, I’ve learnt to see and improve my mistakes from the past. I’ve done so many mistakes. Now, all I want to do is to change myself to become a better person. InshaAllah. I believe in Allah. I believe that He has written something special for me. Special that it takes a lot of patience and prayer. All I want to do now is to prepare myself for that special person. A special person whom I’ll be spending the rest of my life with through thick and thin, and the most important thing – the one who will lead me towards Allah, who will become the Imam of my prayers, the father of my children, the one who will always hold my hand and together helping each other to attain Jannah. InshaAllah. To me, it’s not just about – love. It’s more than that. It’s about responsibility and commitment. It’s about the beginning of the journey together towards forever in Jannah. And most of all, I want it to be special, to experience it according to what Allah has already planned for me.

InshaAllah.
I will always be waiting for that day to come.

Dear heart, have faith in Allah.

Love,
Ieka Ahmad.

Reason why I love butterflies

The story of the butterfly.

“It was the early blossoming of spring and a girl was wandering through a garden when she discovered a cocoon hanging from the branch of a tree. It was almost time for a butterfly to emerge. Fascinated with her discovery she returned to the garden daily, enthusiastic to see all that would happen and hoping never to miss a thing. One day, a small opening appeared and the girl saw the butterfly struggling to free itself from its cocoon and enter a new world. She watched intently until the butterfly seems to have stopped making progress. It appeared as if it had gone as far as possible and could go no further. The girl made a sudden decision. She began to remove pieces of the cocoon that were obstructing the butterfly. Excited, she watched as the butterfly emerged, hoping its wings would unfold. But her excitement turned into dismay as the butterfly remained unable to move. It was then that girl realized what was happening. The cocoon was intended to create the struggle necessary for the butterfly to fly. In fact, it was not trying to escape. This was just nature’s way of making its wings stronger. It occurred to the girl that the butterfly would actually be grateful to the cocoon for the struggle that they would share.”

Love,
Ieka Ahmad.

Believe in yourself

“One thing I’ve learned from the past is to never give up, no matter how bad your result is. Don’t let it stop you from achieving your dreams.”

In the name of Allah, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful.

It’s 9.03 in the morning and it’s raining here in Nathan, Australia. The weather influences me to dance my fingers on the keyboard. May Allah ease and open my mind, let the words and ideas flow through for this post. Firstly, I’d like to dedicate this post to all of you who’ll be taking their SPM result next week. This one is especially for you, love.

I was touched when some of you came to me for advices. MashaAllah. I, humbly say, at times I don’t feel myself competent to give you advices because I, myself, still struggling to achieve my dreams too. But I remind myself that I have nothing to lose if I share this to all of you. The best feeling in the world is when you become a part of one’s success, when you become an inspiration to someone.

Here is something that I can share that can help you to motivate yourself. InshaAllah.

I remember those days when I struggled to calm myself down. Those days were the days when I lost my appetite to eat and losing the interest to have fun with my friends. Those were the days when I spent my day working and the rest of it at home, completing Sudoku. Funny isn’t it? I was so scared, terribly scared, exactly the way you feel right now. But at the end of the day, I said to myself, I have to face it no matter what. Whether it is good or bad, I have to accept it and be grateful to Allah for it. Because Allah knows what’s best for me. My result wasn’t like what I expected, but Alhamdulillah, I managed to get all credits for 13 subjects with a small number of As, Bs and Cs. I am being completely honest; I’m just an ordinary student. But I believe in myself that I can go far beyond my imagination, beyond my expectation. And so do you. Yes you can. I believe that the only thing limiting you is your thoughts. Only you have the power to change your thoughts. Look forward and dream of what is possible for your life. With action, anything in life is possible. You can, yes you can.

“Whatever the mind can conceive and believe, the mind can achieve.”

I love the quote. I’ve been keeping it in my heart and mind ever since I read it in Dato’ Sheikh Muszaphar Shukor’s book. Life has thrown some rocks in my stream and each and one of it has helped me to become stronger, to become who I am today. Sometimes challenges and struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. Challenges and struggles are the nature of life which has helped me to grow up to become more mature. One thing I’ve learned from the past is to never give up, no matter how bad your result is. Don’t let it stop you from achieving your dreams. Believe in yourself.

A few years ago, I was that girl sitting in her room imagining her dreams, putting her best effort to achieve her dreams. Alhamdulillah, with patient and faith that I have in Allah, I’ve achieved a part of my dreams. The key is faith. Have faith in Allah and have faith in yourself. Take a good care of your relationship with Allah. Never neglect your five daily prayers because that is the most important thing and the best communication we have with Allah, which is also the only way you can convince Him that you really want this. Trust me. If you have Allah, you have everything.

I look forward for adventures in my life. Now that I’m here, pursuing another dreams of mine, setting goals and resolutions. I’ve been planning to do an exchange-study program to UK, inshaAllah. In order to achieve this, I have to meet the requirements and to do that I have to work hard and be persistent. Please pray for my success in this world and Hereafter, to become the best Muslim Psychologist, InshaAllahu Taala.

To those of you who’ll be taking your SPM result soon, your result will show you the hard work you’ve put on for the past few years. It shows you how much effort you’ve put on. By the meaning of “effort”, it’s not just about burning the midnight oil. It’s also about how earnestly you pray to Allah. If you fail to achieve your target, it is not the end of everything. Bear in mind that Allah knows what’s best for you. Failing doesn’t mean you are a loser. In fact, failure is the best teacher. The reason why Allah makes it a bit harder for you is to make you a fighter. He wants you to feel and appreciate the feeling of victory and success. Set your aims and goals, and try harder next time. I believe you can. This time around, the only things you can do is pray and have faith in Allah for He knows what’s best for you. InshaAllah. Next week, if you pass with flying colours, then Alhamdulillah, say Alhamdulillah. All your hard work paid off. Remember, nothing great was ever achieved without Allah’s help. Last but not least, I wish you the best of luck.

Love,
Ieka Ahmad.

On my journey to Brisbane

Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim.

7 hours and 45 minutes journey from Kuala Lumpur to Brisbane was indescribable. I can’t explain how much my back hurts sitting in the flight for too long. All I can think of back then was how can these people stand sitting in the airplane for about 8 hours or longer than that? So I told myself to relax and chill, you’ll get use to it soon. Well, I hope so. Thank God with the technologies nowadays, they provided us with entertainment i.e. movie, music, etc. They also provided us with The Quran Translation, which I enjoyed myself reading it and indeed, Quran is the best book of all.



Along the journey, I was touched looking at the beautiful creations of Allah Taala. The sun, the skies, the land and the moon, MashaAllah, Allah is The Almighty. Something beautiful happened and I can’t stop praising The Almighty for it, Alhamdulillah. The story which I’m about to share is something that I want you to see, feel and think of how beautiful and powerful Allah Subhanahu Wa Taala is.

Before, I was so scared thinking of the risks of studying outside Malaysia, being far away from my family and living in a country which Islam is being least practiced. Every wish I get from my friends, I can’t stop asking them to pray for me, to pray for my success in this world and the Hereafter.

Beyond my expectation, in the airplane, my dad and I met a married couple who are currently staying in Gold Coast, Australia. The husband is a Turkish and the wife is an Australian citizen. Both of them are Muslims. We swapped numbers. Coincidentally, the husband’s name is Mohd Zaid. And by the meaning of “coincidentally” is what actually happened at the same time. Before my dad told me the husband’s name, I was looking outside the window, reminiscing back the beautiful memories I had with Zaid. I really I miss him. And I can't described how much I miss him. When I asked my dad his name, I was, of course, shocked. I said to myself, only Allah knows the reason why it happened coincidentally. Wallahu’alam.

The husband and wife soon became my foster family. Subhanallah I was touched when the husband said to me,

“Nurul Afiqah, from now on, my wife is like your big sister.
If you need anything, just contact her number”.

From that moment, I was so relieved that with Allah’s permission, He destined me to meet this Muslims couple. Alhamdulillah, I can’t stop thanking Allah for every beautiful thing that I’ve been through before and after.

Alhamdulillah. I thank Allah for everything, for making things easier for me. I still have loads of stories to share. Stories which can make us all amazed by the power of Allah Taala. InshaAllah, I'll try to find some time to write it down. I'd love to share this experience to all of you. InshaAllah. Please pray for me, for my success here in this world, and in the Hereafter. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

A new melody of life

Happy New Year 2012 everyone.

Like everyone else, I’m blown away by the beautiful melody and lyrics of A Thousand Years. I love listening to the lyrics. I agree. It is a beautiful song. Sometimes, words which are unspoken are best described by song, isn’t it? Well, same goes to me. At times, it’s hard for me to explain my situation by words. And to express it, I’ll listen to a song which suits well with my feeling. I guess that's one of the reasons why I rarely blog nowadays.

Anyway, all I want this year is to let go of my yesterday, move on with what I have today and complete my future with something good. No more ‘sad song’ playing everyday in my life. It's time to sing a ‘happy song’. I know I'm stronger than this and I'm sure I can make it through. So last but not least, I wish you all a good year 2012. Happy New Year again from me, love.

Somewhere far away

“...it feels like you want to travel away from where you belong; somewhere where nobody knows who you are. A place somewhere that no one knows.”

I’ve decided to be away from every social network I have and stick with my blog since this is the only place where I feel safe enough to express my feeling. Everything about my personal life has turned into something complicated now. I don’t want to make it even more complicated by posting it randomly. Hence, I’ve decided to let the feeling go here, in this blog. There are a few things that my head can’t stop questioning and I can’t sleep thinking about it. Even worse, I cry myself to sleep.

Let me take a deep breath.

This ugly feeling, it feels like you want to travel away from where you belong; somewhere where nobody knows who you are. A place somewhere that no one knows. It’s too hard to express it by words. It’s just too hard. I’ve packed it all in my head but I couldn’t express it any better. Forgive me, dear heart. I have to burden you with all these. I know this is a test. Deep down inside I don’t want to feel this way. But I’m only human. Sometimes I keep too much, and I end up crying all night long. It’s like heavy clouds in the sky, are best relieved by the letting of a little water.

Whenever I cry, I tell myself; “this is life, Ieka. We can’t always have the sun shining every day. You can’t have a rainbow without a little rain. Someday you’ll taste the feeling of happiness again. Allah has a better plan for you. Stop crying and be thankful to Him.”

Patience

“...And the most important thing I’ve learned is to never hurt your parents feelings because in life we need the blessings of our parents in everything we do...”

Well, it's been a very long time now. I didn't write much these days. After all, I really miss the feeling of expressing every thought that I have in mind. For some people, they might think that writing is easy, but for me it isn’t. I must say that I miss all the fun that I had here in this blog. I love to write. First and foremost, forgive me for any of my grammatical errors in this post. Life for me, as for now, not much of an adventure. I’ve been spending half of the year doing nothing. I miss studying. I miss all the chaotic life I had as a student. I tend to be a little bit jealous looking at those who’d finished their first semester. I’ve been waiting for the offer letter almost six months now. And I have to admit that I had almost given up. To be honest, I didn’t get accepted to enter my dream university. I was rejected. I should’ve known it better, but I was putting too much hope instead of putting too much effort. Six months of a very painful waiting, I began to realize that this isn’t just about a-painful-waiting. I’ve learned a lot; I’ve learned to be more patient. I’ve learned to rely on Allah. I’ve learned that in order to achieve what I want; I have to put in extra effort. I’ve learned to accept the fact that sometimes we cannot always have what we want no matter how much we’ve tried. Sometimes, things happen for a reason and if Allah wills it, it will happen. I’ve also learned a valuable lesson from my own mistake, do not delay things that you’ve intended to do. And the most important thing I’ve learned is to never hurt your parents feelings because in life we need the blessings of our parents in everything we do. Please, take whatever I've shared here as lessons of a lifetime. I believe that Allah has a better plan for me. Maybe even better than what I have in mind, even greater than my plan. Maybe someday I will fulfill my dream, but not now. Whatever the reason is, Allah knows what’s best for me. For now, yes, I am still trying, but this time, I leave everything in Allah’s hands. Again, if Allah wills it, it will happen. I pray for the best. Amin.